Huh...

I'm feeling particularly worthless today. Work isn't as fulfilling as it sometimes is, but I rarely feel like I've done anything at all after a week's work, so that isn't saying much. As a wise person once said, "a nutless monkey could do your job" (and that quote still manages to make me laugh even though I'm mad). That's how it is for me. There are people all around me, doing meaningful important work in our office, but I'm the superfluous one, the one that doesn't belong among such intelligent, creative, and thoughtful people. I am a mere grunt in a room of giants.

Thoughts going through my mind:
I'm a glorified babysitter.
My presence here changes nothing.
If I was gone, no one would notice or care.
I'm being paid to do meaningless busywork.
I don't have a real job.
I am unnecessary.
There are better people out there who could do this job and give it meaning.
No one wants to hear my opinions because they have no value.

There's nothing I can do at the moment except keep accepting my own irrelavence in this work environment. It's probably a good thing I don't have a car right now. When I feel like this, I just want to get as far away from home as possible. I'd drive until I felt better. And that sometimes takes days.